A sad day...

My cousin lost her husband today. Their two young sons lost their Daddy today. I feel so sad for them. Whatever issues I have with my cousin no longer matter. All that matters is that I'm sad for her. I can not even imagine what it would be like to suddenly not have your husband anymore. The thought scares me.
Please pray for Julie, and her boys, Dylan and Jayden, as they are grieving terribly.

I'm LATE.

Well, tomorrow I have the long awaited ultrasound and MRI on my hand tomorrow in Regina. I've been waiting for this since the beginning of May and it's finally here. BUT. I MIGHT not be able to have the MRI done. You see, there are these super wonderful tests to get done to find out things about your body, BUT when there is a possibility of a pregnancy, they can't be done. So. I am in the same boat as I was when my bone scan day was here. They had to test before hand to verify or deny a pregnancy. BUT the difference for this MRI day, is this.... I am LATE. Not just one or two days late, but LATE!!! Like 2 WEEKS late! I've done multiple urine tests that all say negative, yet I'm still LATE. They did a blood test on Monday night, but the results are not in yet. BUT, they will have to do a blood test before the MRI to, again, confirm or deny. The difference with this blood test will be the immediate result. So. Here we go again. Maybe I'll have some exciting news to share tomorrow! Oh, how I hope that will be true! But if not, I pray that God will help me to not be too disappointed.

Why?

Why do I feel sad when I'm supposed to feel happy? Why does it seem that my house only gets clean when I'm upset or trying to avoid something? Why does it seem that when I want to do something for ME, that laundry baskets are overflowing with dirty clothes? Why when I want to have a soaker in the tub is the bathroom a mess? Why when asked for my opinions and suggestions do people completely ignore me when I respond? Why can't I live closer to the special friends I have? Why does housework only get done by one person unless you get mad and have to ask or tell in a not so pleasant way? Why do we always ask why? What does it even mean? As parents don't we feel a little irritated when our kids go through the stage where they ask "Why?" non stop until you get very irritated? That question gets asked a lot and on a regular basis. I remember when a friend of mine died in 1997, I yelled up at the sky, "WHY?"... repeatedly. Why do we ask why? Usually we know the answer but are looking for some validation in the response I guess? Hmm.. something to think about. Why do we ask why? Why do I ask why when I know the answer already? Why do YOU ask why?

A day for rememberance...

Today is the International Day for Pregnancy/Infant loss Awareness. We remember Casey even more today and keep on wondering what it would have been like with him here. We miss him more and more each day and love him even more than that!
So for those that you know who have suffered this type of loss, send them a little extra love and care today. And if you don't know of someone, pray for all of us that have. We sure covet all the love and prayers we can get.

Amateur photog

So... I have FINALLY been able to post the photos from the 3 photo sessions I did of my siblings!!! We had a lot of fun doing them all.... especially ME! I still can't believe that they all picked me to do them for them, and I'm so glad that they like how the pictures turned out! :) Yay! :)

Photos of my older sister and her family! :)

Photos of my older brother and his family! :)

Photos of my younger brother!!! :)